My Love My Hero
Kian was the last person Lovelle wished to cross path ever again. She hated him… Hated him so much for ruining her first love and betray her trust. They were once bestfriends but now mortal enemies.
But fate played a big joke on her. She fell in love with the unlikeliest man on the planet -Kian. When she thought that she already recovered from the pain of the past, came Mart, her ex-boyfriend. And once again, they were hurled into a whirlwind of mess as old as eight years ago.
“DAMN!” Napatampal sa manibela si Lovelle ng pumugak-pugak ang tunog ng makina ng kanyang kotse. Maya-maya pa ay itinirik siya niyon sa daan. Bumaba siya ng sasakyan at malakas na ibinalibag pasara ang pinto. Holy shit, but she’s stuck!
Ano ngayon ang gagawin niya? Wala siyang alam sa pagmemekaniko.
Her already crumpled face gained more creases as she irritatingly gazed at her car.
Binuksan niya ang hood ng kanyang second hand na Toyota Corolla. Isang taon na niyang minamaneho ang sasakyang iyon at ito ang unang pagkakataong itinirik siya ng kotse. Siguro ay dahil sa maraming lubak na nadaanan niya.
She cursed silently. Nobody cared to improve the always rough road of Santa Barbara. Five years ago, the road was narrow and dusty in summer, lubak-lubak naman tuwing tag-ulan.
And she was driving on the same road as if no years have passed. In fact, it even worsened, she angrily thought.
Damn those trashy politicians in her hometown! Sinilip niya kung ano ang sira sa kanyang kotse ngunit hindi niya talaga alam kung ano. Of course, she knew nothing aside from driving, what would she expect?
She stole a brief glance at her wristwatch. It was five o’clock in the afternoon. Lalo siyang nanlumo dahil sa mga oras na iyon ay wala ng pampasaherong trysikel na bumibiyahe papasok sa baryo nila. Mga limang kilometro pa ang layo niya bago marating ang kanilang bahay. Kung maglalakad siya ay tiyak aabutan siya ng dilim sa daan. And to add more to her dilemma, she was wearing high heeled boots!
Nakasanayan na kasi niyang magsuot ng high heeled boots dahil sa trabaho niya. She was a famous ramp and print ad model here and abroad. Ilang sikat na produkto na rin ang iminodelo niya sa telebisyon.
She silently prayed for a private vehicle to come her way. That was her only hope else she had no other choice but to drag her ass home walking in high heeled boots!
Ngunit iilan lamang sa baryo nila ang may sasakyan. And she was in a province, kung saan maagang umuuwi at natutulog ang mga tao.
Isinara niya ang hood ng sasakyan at wala rin naman siyang maayos doon. Muli niyang binuksan ang pintuan ng kotse at dinukot sa handbag ang kanyang cellphone. She shouted a harsh curse when she discovered it was turned off.
Darn! But she forgot to charge her cellphone all day long. She tried to turn it on but it suddenly shut down. Battery empty.
Now, this is what you call a bad day! She combed her raven black hair with her wobbling fingers. Inabot ang pakete ng chewing gum sa dashboard ng sasakyan, kumuha ng tatlong piraso and chewed the gum hardly inside her mouth, releasing the growing tension in her nerves.
Ten minutes passed in a blur. Darkness started to creep the always peaceful town of Santa Barbara. The sound of night animals and crickets filled her ears, making her feel really worried.
Well, maybe she needed to start walking. She was very frustrated but she had no other choice.
Her family was not expecting her to come home today. Kausap niya kanina sa telepono ang kanyang Mommy at sinabi niyang bukas pa siya uuwi. She now regretted that she went home ahead on time. Tapos ay nalobat pa ang cp niya.
She inhaled sharply habang pinapakalma ang sarili. Pagkatapos ay nagsimula siyang maglakad. She loved wearing high heels ngunit sa pagkakataong iyon ay gusto niyang hubarin na lamang ang suot na boots at itapon. Her fashion statement was becoming an ordeal as of the moment.
Isang metro pa lamang ang nalalakad niya ng may makitang papalapit na sasakyan.
“Oh thank God!” She shouted in joy. Sa wakas ay may masasakyan na siya. Kaagad na pumagitna siya sa kalsada upang hindi siya malampasan ng driver ng pickup.
She badly needed this opportunity and hell may freeze but she won’t allow it to pass her way!
Mabilis ang takbo ng pick-up ngunit ng makita ng driver ang dalaga sa gitna ng daan ay bumagal ang takbo niyon at tumigil sa harapan ni Lovelle.
She felt like a maiden in distress and that she had encountered her knight in shining armour! Gusto niyang sugurin ang diver niyon at paghahalikan sa matinding pasasalamat.
But the relief in her face was erased in an instant ng mapagsino ang driver ng pickup. Hindi tinted ang salamin ng sasakyan at kitang-kita ng mga mata niya ang driver niyon.
Si Kian. Isang kababata at ex-bestfriend. Her face hardened like igneous rock. She instantly turned her back at the car. Kaagad na tumabi siya sa daan at ipinagpatuloy ang paglalakad.
She will gladly walk more than ever and she did not care even if she will encounter the most notorious incident on the road!
What she had just encountered was nothing but the most abominable creature in the whole universe and she wanted to puke in anger.
“Lovelle!” His voice was so full and manly.
She was forced to stop walking and glanced back. Her heart suddenly faltered as she saw his face. What entertained her eyes were a very virile male figure and the familiar handsome face. Nakalabas na ito sa sasakyan at ngayon nga ay nakatingin sa kanya. He was taller with a sturdy body and was wearing a white body-hugging tee and faded maong jeans that fitted to his legs like second skin.
Napakurap siya ng ilang beses. Gosh, but the abominable creature changed a lot! She can’t help but notice his physical sleekness and his amazing metamorphosis.
He was not the tall lanky boy that he was five years ago. He was now looking very manly in all angles. She can’t imagine how he managed to acquire this manly look and charisma. Though he was still sporting the same F4 long hair, chinky eyes, aquiline nose and red lips.
Looking at him, she can’t help but fall under his predatoric sex appeal. Sa klase ng anyo ng kababata sa ngayon, tiyak na ilalampaso nito pagdating sa tindig at katawan ang mga miyembro ng bandang F4. His skin tanned, na mas lalong nakadagdag sa lalaking-lalaking anyo nito. And he easily pulled that look with pride that she gawked at him for several seconds.
Lalaking-lalaki! Huh! She wanted to vomit at the rotten word. If she had not known him all these years, her eyes will surely deceive her. But then again, she knew him very well. From the tip of his toenails to the root of his hair! Geez, never can he fool her with such manly antic!
But hell, she can’t take her eyes off him! She felt the strange thud in her heart and winced secretly. Hindi yata niya kayang tanggaping nalulula ang damdamin niya sa bagong anyo ni Kian.
“Bakit ka naglalakad sa daan?” He asked while eyes not leaving her face.
She answered him with an uncaring shrug. Pagkatapos ay muling tumalikod at ipinagpatuloy ang paglalakad.
“Lovelle!” Malakas na tawag nito at sinundan ang dalaga.
“None of your business Kian!” She shouted back habang hindi lumilingon. “Gusto ko lang maglakad.”
His eyebrows cocked. Lumingon ito sa pinanggalingan ng babae at nakita ang kotseng nasa gilid ng daan sa may di-kalayuan.
“Nasiraan ka ba ng sasakyan? Ihahatid na kita sa inyo.”
She stomped her foot on the ground. She looked back at him with a sarcastic glare. She smiled acidly. “Playing a gentleman, huh!?” She mocked. “No use doing that Kian because I damned well knew you’re not a man.”
You are a rotten homosexual who ruined my life and breached our friendship! She must have said that had she not controlled her raging tongue.
His face turned seriously grim. He ground his teeth in anger.
She was enjoying seeth and insult on his face. She saw his jaws moved as he ground his teeth. But he deserved it! Mas masakit pa doon ang naramdaman niya limang taon na ang nakalilipas.
Betrayal and anger swept her again. It was as if she was transported five years back.
She thought time healed the wound but she realized it never was. She felt as if everything was anew. And she wanted to break into tiny bits and pieces again.
Hell, she hated this! She never wanted to feel such mediocre feelings again. But she can’t stop her emotions.
She never think that coming face to face with Kian meant reminiscing the past. The past that she buried and never wished to happen again.
“Lovelle!” His voice hard and rugged. His fist tightened in dismay. He knew she was still angry with him. Oh well, hindi nito masisisi ang kababata.
“Don’t bother anymore Kian.” This time ay kalmado na ang boses niya. “I can manage. Umalis ka na. Alam kung may pupuntahan ka pa.”
Ngunit nanatiling nakatayo sa harapan niya ang binata. He did not move. His chinky eyes bored to hers. And she found herself staring at him too. Their gazes locked as if there was something that’s holding their eyes together.
She realized that despite of her anger, she dearly missed her bestfriend. But of course, they had been best of friends since time immemorial. Hindi madaling kalimutan ang pinagsamahan nila sa loob ng maraming panahon.
“I’m glad to see you again Love. I missed my best friend for the past years.”
“But of course!” Pauyam na sagot niya. No, she won’t allow him to play with her feelings. Not anymore!
Isang malalim na buntong-hininga ang pinakawalan ng binata.
“You did not give me the chance to explain.” He whispered softly. “I could have defended myself.” Sadness crossed his eyes for a moment. “Instead you vehemently threw our friendship away. Matagal kang nawala. But I’m glad you’re back.”
“Yes I’m back.” Her voice hard. She hated their conversation and just wished to disappear like a puff of smoke. “Only because I need to. Hindi ako bumalik upang sariwain ang nakaraang kinalimutan ko na Kian. And besides hindi ako ang sumira sa pagkakaibigan natin. Ikaw iyon!” The accusation in her voice was like a digging dagger. And how dare he talk about the past in front of her face! Spite him!
“If you just gave me the chance to explain—“
“Huh!” She bitterly cut him off. “Even if you beg for forgiveness, I can’t give that to you at that time Kian. Even until now!” She vehemently stressed out. “Sa lahat ng tao ay ikaw ang nakakaalam kung gaano ko kamahal si Mart. I trusted you. Delicadeza lang sana at respeto sa pagkakaibigan natin.” She blew some air. “But you know, all of those craps happened in the past. It’s been five years. And for our peace of mind, kinalimutan ko na ang mga nangyari. But sad to say I can’t bring back our friendship. Everything’s broken and we can never put back the pieces again. I don’t have any intention to do that.”
“Love…” He whispered huskily. There was sadness in his eyes. And a yearning that was there for five years.
“Kung hindi nga lamang at ikakasal ang Kuya Angelo ay never akong uuwi. Let’s just forget everything. I have learned to forget your betrayal along with our friendship and I have forgotten you.”
“I’m so sorry Love…” He whispered in forlorn voice. If he can just turn back time he won’t think twice. He hated this. He wanted to win back his bestfriend. The only girl he cared for so many years until now.
“That’s life Kian.” Binalewala niya ang ligaw na damdaming sumibol sa puso niya sa paraan ng pagbanggit nito sa petname niya. “I can’t trust you anymore. Besides, hindi na Santa Barbara ang mundo ko. Pagbalik ko sa Maynila, hindi na muling magkukrus ang mga landas natin.”
Nagfile siya ng isang linggong bakasyon sa opisina dahil nga ikakasal ang Kuya Angelo niya. Tutulong din siya sa pag-aasikaso sa ibang detalye ng kasal. At kailangan niyang magpasukat ng damit pang-abay ilang araw bago ang kasalan.
Ang kasal ni Angelo ay sa darating na Linggo. And after the wedding, muli siyang babalik ng Maynila. She had her job there. Besides, she had the metro as her new world and not Santa Barbara anymore.
“You will stay in Santa Barbara Lovelle.” There was firmness in his voice.
Isang ngising aso ang naging tugon niya sa sinabi nito. Surely she has no reason to stay in this damned place! Not with Kian around!
“It’s getting dark. Ihahatid na kita sa inyo. Pagkatapos ay babalikan ko ang sasakyan mo at titingnan ko kung ano ang sira.”
“Why, thank you!” She said the gratitude with deadly sarcasm. Kung hindi nga lang gabi na at may magagawa pa siya ay hinding-hindi siya papayag na magpapahatid dito. She hated the idea na magkakaroon siya ng utang na loob sa lalaking ito!
He disregarded her ill statement. Then he grabbed her elbow and ushered her in his pickup.
She flinched secretly as their skin rubbed. Electrifying warmth travelled to her every nerve fiber making her gape in awe. She suddenly felt conscious of his grip. She shook her hand and he let go of her.
“I used to hold you before Lovelle, for Christ sake, don’t act as if nandidiri ka sa hawak ko.”
Nandidiri? Surely hindi iyon ang naramdaman niya. She hated to admit to herself that she was gravely affected by his mere touch. And she was so mortified!
“Kaya kong maglakad Kian. Hindi na kailangang akayin mo ako.” Nauna na siyang lumakad palapit sa pick up. He followed her. She opened the passenger’s seat and slouched on the leather seat.
Her nose basked in a manly scent inside his car. It was an expensive musk. Pati pabango ng binata ay panlalaki na rin ha. She grinned. Na kaagad na itinago niya ng pumasok sa loob ng sasakyan ang binata.
Tahimik na pinaandar nito ang pickup. At sa maikling durasyon ng kanilang biyahe, walang salitang namagitan sa kanila. Nang tumigil ang sasakyan nito sa harapan ng kanilang bahay ay saka lamang siya nakahinga ng maluwag.
“Anyway, thanks!” Akma niyang bubuksan ang pintuan upang bumaba na when he held her hand and stopped her.
“Goodnight Love,” he stared adoringly at her eyes and smiled.
Lovelle found herself under trance at his stare and boyish smile. For a moment, she was immobilized. Gosh, but her heart made a 360 turn inside her chest!
She silently cursed herself when she got back her wits. He should not affect her like this, this is sheer madness! She shook her head in dismay. But she totally lost her ground when he lowered his head and gave her a quick kiss on the lips.
Her jaw dropped in amazement.
“Just a goodnight kiss Lovelle. Can’t help it. A token for seeing you again after five long years.” His eyes flashed.
Namumula ang mukhang kaagad na lumabas siya sa sasakyan ng binata. Goodness, but she never dare think na maapektuhan ng ganuon sa simpleng halik ng kababata!
She can still feel the aftershock of the kiss kahit nasa labas na siya ng sasakyan nito. Pakiramdam niya ay nanginginig ang kanyang mga tuhod.
Gayun na lamang ang pasasalamat niya ng makitang nakabukas ang bakal na gate ng kanilang tahanan. Kaagad na pumasok siya sa looban ng kanilang bahay.
She needed to stay away from Kian. Hindi niya gusto ang damdaming sumibol sa puso niya sa pagkikita nilang muli.
She was not expecting this. At hindi niya papayagang magmumukhang tanga for entertaining stupid feelings and thoughts to a guy she knew was fake!
MABILIS na pinaharurot ni Kian ang sasakyan pabalik sa pinanggalingan ni Lovelle.
Mixed emotions occupied his heart upon seeing his bestfriend again after five long years. He was surprised to see her awhile ago, looking as fabulous and flawless as she ever was in his eyes.
She had blossomed into a very pretty woman. He had seen her in several commercials but seeing her again in person after five long years was entirely different. He had long for the moment that he can see her again. At naganap nga iyon ngayon.
He was so happy. Although he already predicted that she was coming home one of these days at ikakasal nga ang kapatid nito, he was not prepared to feel such joy upon seeing her again. Five years were a torture and he longed for her presence.
She had been his everything. His bestfriend, his partner in crime, his inspiration, the air he breathe and his sweet sunshine.
Nang lumayo ito sa kanya ay tuluyan na ring nawalan ng kulay ang buhay niya.
But now that she was back, he won’t let pass the chance that he can explain to her. That he can settle their differences and win her back. Her friendship was one of the most important things he cherished and he won’t let her get mad of him for eternity.
Lilinisin niya ang pangalan niya dito. Muli niya itong susuyuin. He was willing to do everything just to win her trust back, just to have her back.
Surely, Mart did not deserve her at all!
No, he won’t let that obsessed homo get in the way of his plans again and ruin his life. He will not permit it this time.
That he promise.
He was so absorbed with his own thoughts that he drove passed Lovelle’s car. Malapit na siya sa bayan ng marealize ang nangyayari. He stopped and reined his feelings. Then he drove back at where her car was parked.
He abruptly checked the car but with gentleness and preservation. Anumang gamit na may kinalaman sa dalaga ay mahalaga sa kanya. Inalagaan niya ang lahat ng mga ala-ala nilang dalawa.
Five years have passed but he still feels the same way for her. Siguro ay hindi magbabago pa ang nararamdaman niya para sa kababata.
He just wished that everything will be put back to its proper places now that she was back.
PAGISING niya ng umagang iyon ay nakita na niya ang kanyang kotse sa garahe nila. Kaagad na nilapitan niya iyon at binuksan ang pintuan. Nakita niya ang susi sa keyhole at nagkasalubong ang mga kilay niya. And remembered na kinatok nga pala siya ng ina kagabi at hiningi ang susi ng kanyang kotse.
Pumasok siya sa loob ng sasakyan at pinaandar iyon. Maayos na umandar ang kotse. Iniatras niya iyon at ng masigurong ayos na ang sasakyan ay muli niyang pinausad pabalik sa garahe.
Lumabas siya ng kotse at muling pumasok sa loob ng bahay. Nadatnan niya sa kusina ang ina na naghahanda ng agahan. Tumulong siya dito at inako na ang pagpiprito ng hotdog.
“Nasa garahe na ang sasakyan mo Lovelle. Inihatid ni Kian kagabi pagkatapos niyang ayusin.”
Hindi siya nagbigay ng komento sa sinabi ng ina. Wala itong alam tungkol sa namagitang hidwaan sa pagitan nila ng kababata. Para dito ay magbestfriends pa rin sila ni Kian.
“Ang sabi niya anak ay pupunta daw siya dito mamayang hapon upang bumisita.”
Her eyebrows rose sardonically. What the hell was that homo up to? She never wanted him around her. She can’t bear a sight of him!
No, she did not want him hang out with her. She wanted to shriek in abhorrence at the thought!
Mamayang tanghali ay aalis siya upang hindi madadatnan ng kababata sa bahay nila. Masisira lang ang araw niya kapag makaengkuwentro ito. She impulsively planned to visit one of her high school friends.
“May pupuntahan ako mamaya Mommy.” She removed the hotdogs in the frying pan at inilagay sa pinggan. “Please tell him I won’t be available should he come this afternoon.”
“Matagal din kayong hindi nagkita ni Kian ah. I’m sure he greatly misses you. He’s your bestfriend. At ikaw, hindi mo ba siya namimiss?”
Her face hardened.
Noon iyon Mommy. Noong hindi niya ako tinraidor. But were now mortal enemies! At hindi ko siya gustong makitang muli!
Ngunit hindi niya kayang isatinig iyon sa ina. Nobody was aware of the tiff between her, Mart and Kian eight years ago. Matagumpay nilang naitago sa kanilang pamilya at mga kaibigan ang nangyaring insidente.
Nagkibit siya ng mga balikat. “Nagkita na kami kagabi Mom. And besides, he can come back the following days.”
That gayface can disappear anytime so he can’t pester her and her peace of mind anymore!
Inilapag niya sa malapad na dining table na gawa sa Narra ang hawak na pinggan. Nakahanda na ang agahan sa mesa at ang hotdog na lamang ang kulang. Her mother cooked fried rice and scrambled egg. Siya ang nagprito ng hotdog.
“Sandali at tatawagin ko lang ang Daddy mo at si Angelo.”
She heaved a sigh when her mother did not pursue the topic. Nang tumalikod ang ina, humugot siya ng upuan at nanlalatang umupo.
Her mind was so busy scourging for ideas just to avoid Kian who was now her mortal enemy. She felt like she was on a hot seat and that her life was at bay of destruction.
Oh well, her life was already ruined liked Atlantis and that’s all because of her so trusted bestfriend!
Nagkaphobia na siya sa pakikipagrelasyon at pakikipagkaibigan sa mga lalaki thinking that they will all hurt her. They can’t be trusted.
She has Mart and Kian to prove it.
GABI NA NG umuwi siya sa kanila mula sa bayan. Binisita niya si Abigael. Ang kaklase na maagang nag-asawa dalawang taon pagkatapos nilang gumradweyt sa high school. She did not see her after graduation. Sa Maynila na kasi siya nagkolehiyo. Kadalasan sa mga kaklase niya ay sa bayan na nag-aral ng kolehiyo. Ngunit sa iba’t-ibang panig ng Luzon nag-apply ng trabaho.
“Kanina ka pa hinihintay ni Kian anak.” Salubong sa kanya ng ina.
Nakunsumi siya sa narinig. Lalo pa ng makita sa sala nila ang lalaki at halatang hinihintay ang pagdating niya. Isang ngiti ang iginawad nito sa kanya. Bilang ganti sa ngiti nito ay tinaasan niya ito ng kilay. The nerve of this traitor to pay her a visit!
“Doon na nga kayo sa Treehouse mag-usap anak.” Suhestiyon ni Margie. Nanonood kasi ito ng palabas sa telebisyon sa sala. “At dalhin mo na itong inihanda kong meryenda upang may makain kayo doon.”
Napilitan siyang tanggapin ang tray ng pagkain na ibinigay sa kanya ng ina. Dalawang mataas na baso ng juice at camote fries ang laman niyon. Bitbit ang tray ay ay tinungo niya ang likuran ng bahay kung saan naroroon ang treehouse. Hindi niya nilingon ang lalaki ngunit alam niyang nakasunod ito sa kanya.
“Ako na ang magdadala niyang tray ng pagkain Lovelle.”
“Ako na.” Paangil na sagot niya at nagsimulang umakyat sa hagdan ng treehouse. Hindi naman kataasan iyon dahil mababa ang puno ng akasya kung saan iyon nakapatong. The structure of the treehouse was like a nipa hut in bamboo stilts. Hindi naman talaga ang puno ng akasya ang nagsusupport dito kundi ang mga haliging kawayan.
Ipinatong niya sa side table ang bitbit na tray ng pagkain ng makaakyat siya sa treehouse. Sa loob niyon ay ang malapad na kama, side table, divider kung saan nakalagay ang tv at DVD player at ang malaking cabinet na naglalaman ng mga laruan niya noong bata pa siya. Dolls, cooking wares, and the expensive doll house na niregalo sa kanya ng ina during her 8th birthday. And she used to share those toys with Kian in her younger years.
Isang ngiti ang hindi niya napigilang kumurba sa kanyang mga labi ng maalala ang kabataan nila ng kababata. But she instantly erased it as his betrayal reminded her foolish mind.
“Nagdala ako ng Harry Potter Cds Lovelle. Napanood mo na ba ang lahat ng sequels niyon?”
She shook her head. “Hindi ko napanood ang pinakalatest.” She loved watching Harry Potter. She can remember she used to wait for its sequel before. Ngunit naging busy siya sa trabaho kaya hindi na siya nagkaroon ng panahong panoorin ang pinakabagong sequel niyon na siyang ending na rin ng kuwento.
She remembered the first time she watched the movie. High school pa siya noon at kasama niya si Kian. At pareho silang nag-enjoy sa panonood. They both watched the movie ngunit iyon pa rin ang pinag-usapan nila hanggang sa paglabas ng movie house sa bayan as if ang isa sa kanila ay hindi nakapanood.
“Gusto mo panoorin natin?” Kinuha nito ang cd sa lalagyan at isinalang sa DVD player. Then he turned on the tv and set it to video mode.
Tahimik lamang siyang naupo sa kama. Kinuha ang isang unan doon at niyakap. She watched him operate the DVD player. Nang magplay na ang DVD ay nilingon siya nito at umupo sa tabi niya.
Bigla siyang naconscious. They used to stay inside this treehouse before. Ito ang naging hideout nila dahil nandito ang mga laruan niya at dito sila naglalaro. At hindi niya maintindihan ang sarili kung bakit nakakaramdam ng pagkailang sa isiping dalawa lamang sila ng lalaki sa lugar na iyon.
But of course, they were adults now at hindi na mga bata katulad noon. Isa pa, hindi na siya matalik na magkaibigan ngayon.
Pinilit niya ang sariling magconcentrate sa panonood ng movie at binalewala ang lalaking katabi. Maya-maya pa ay nakafocus na siya sa panonood at engrossed na sinubaybayan ang bawat eksena. She saw Daniel Radcliffe, more mature at the last sequel. Ngunit cute pa rin ito in his signature spectacles.
Wala siyang naririnig na ingay kay Kian and she thought he was also busy watching the movie. Kaya ganun na lamang ang pagkagulat niya ng sa paglingon niya dito ay nahuli niyang nakatutok ang paningin nito sa mukha niya at hindi sa tv monitor. Her heart suddenly leaped out of her chest. Panic rammed her entire being.
As a defense mechanism, she angrily looked at him. Her eyebrows were almost like one line above her eyes.
Darn, but she needed to do something else this abominable creature will surely get to her nerves! He was looking at her with those penetrating gaze and she felt like hypnotized!
“Don’t mind me Love. Gusto lang kitang titigan. Na miss lang kita ng husto.” He whispered smoothly.
She swallowed hard. She felt like something suddenly blocked her throat and she had difficulty swallowing.
“Stop staring at me Kian.” She hissed. She hated herself even more for acting such lunatic! “Are we going to watch the movie or not? We can stop this and avoid wasting both our time you know. I’m tired and I want to sleep.”
Isang malalim na buntong-hininga ang pinakawalan ng binata. “Don’t you miss the good old times we had before Love?”
“Stop that Kian please…” She closed her eyes in frustration. “I would be the craziest person in the world should I do that.” Ayaw niyang alalahanin ang masasayang sandali ng pagkakaibigan nila dahil hindi rin niya maiiwasang alalahanin ang katraidorang ginawa nito sa kanya. She was trying to compose herself yet the wrath that she had for him started to consume her again.
“I missed my bestfriend. I want her back.”
Huh! She wanted to laugh in hysterics. Surely, this homo was out of his mind!
“The old Lovelle was gone Kian. There’s no more friendship between the two of us. Matagal ng natapos iyon. And you ended it yourself. So don’t ask for the impossible. Hinding-hindi na maibabalik pa ang pagkakaibigan natin. Sinabi ko na sa iyong kinalimutan ko na ang nakaraan. So don’t ask for too much.” Her eyes narrowed angrily.
Kian remained silent but he continued looking at her and its getting to piss her off.
“Hindi ko na rin gustong ibalik ang pagkakaibigan natin Lovelle. Hindi ngayon sa muli mong pagbabalik.” He whispered softly after a few minutes.
She forced an acidic smile. “Oh well, ganyan din naman pala at pareho ang gusto nating mangyari, walang problema. From now on, don’t come my way and I will never come your way.”
But she can’t explain why she felt so hurt of his confession. That was what she wanted, right? But for Christ’s sake, why should this confrontation be tear jerker?
She can’t forget how they become best of friends. He had been her world before, her brother, her protector.
Their friendship was the most sacred thing she holds. She thought he felt the same way too. She thought he really value what they have.
But she was dead wrong. He never valued their friendship! He took it for granted! Besides, if he valued their friendship, he won’t betray her trust years ago!
“We can start a new beginning for the two of us.”
“Great! We won’t have any beginning because we already have an ending!”
She stood up and faced him like a roaring tiger. She was already fuming with anger. Plus the fact that she was controlling her stupid tears not to embarrass her, all she wanted to do was to run away from him.
“Let’s start something more special than what we have before Lovelle. I’m sorry to hurt you…”
“Go to hell!” She spat.
Hindi na rumehistro sa isipan niya ang sinabi nito. Patakbo siyang bumaba ng treehouse. Kung hindi niya gagawin iyon ay hindi niya mapipigilan ang sariling umiyak sa harapan nito.
“Umuwi ka na Kian. Matutulog na ako.” Tuloy-tuloy siya sa pagbaba sa treehouse ng hindi nililingon ang lalaki. Nadaanan niya sa sala ang kanyang Mommy, so concentrated watching her favorite soap opera sa labis na pasasalamat niya. Hindi siya nito napansin.
Kaagad na isinubsob niya ang sarili sa kama ng makapasok sa loob ng kanyang silid. The moment she closed the door, tears fell from her eyes. And she cried a river of tears sa kadahilanang hindi malinaw sa kanya. Matagal na niyang iniyakan ang pagkasira ng pagkakaibigan nila ni Kian.
Ngunit mas masakit marinig dito mismo ang katotohanang hindi nito pinahalagahan ang pagkakaibigan nila at wala na rin itong balak na ibalik pa ang pinagsamahan nila.
Ang unan ang napagbuntunan niya ng galit.
SHE WAS DRIVING her car fastly in the rough road of Santa Barbara. Wala siyang pakialam sa mga lubak na nadadaanan niya.
Her car was speeding in a performance she liked and from the looks of it, Kian made a great job fixing her Rav 4.
So she owed something to that homo, huh! She shrugged her shoulders with the thought.
Tinawagan siya ni Angelo kanina at pinapupunta sa sentro ng bayan kung saan naroroon ang boutique na tatahi sa damit pang-abay na susuotin niya. Siya na lang daw ang hindi pa nasusukatan.
Napilitan siyang bagalan ang takbo ng kotse dahil sa isang malalim na lubak. Baka hindi kakayanin ng kotse niya ang lubak na iyon.
Nakabukas ang bintana ng kotse niya at hindi naka on ang aircon. Pagkatapos malampasan ang malalim na lubak, mabagal na ang pagpapatakbo niya sa sasakyan.
Nadaanan niya ang malalapad na taniman ng palay sa magkabilang bahagi ng daan. Napapeaceful ng Santa Barbara at kahit saan niya ibaling ang paningin ay puro berde ang nakikita niya. Malamig at sariwa ang simoy ng hangin.
She breathed deeply. Ang malinis at sariwang hangin ang isa sa na miss niya sa lugar nila. She can’t find it in Metro Manila.
Nang mahagip ng paningin niya ang malaking tractor mga sampung metro ang layo mula sa daan. At nahigit niya ang hininga ng makita na si Kian ang nagmamaneho niyon. He was operating the big machinery with ease.
No wonder why he tanned and his body so rip and muscled. Iyon pala ay dahil ginagawa nito ang mga mabibigat na gawain sa bukid.
Oh well, ang kababata niya ay isa ng ganap na magsasaka!
But she found herself mesmerized! Ang akala niya dati ay office works ang kahihiligan nito. He was clean looking and lanky. Ni minsan ay hindi sumagi sa isip niyang tutulong ito sa pagpapayaman ng malapad na bukirin ng pamilya nito. They own almost half of the land in their town. Ang pamilya niya ay may pag-aari ding bukirin ngunit pindot lang iyon sa lapad ng bukirin ng mga Manzilla.
Hindi niya napansin na nakatigil na pala ang kotse niya at pinanonood ang binata. Kaagad na ibinaling niya ang ulo sa ibang direksiyon ng makita siya nito.
Si Kian ay kaagad na pinatay ang makina ng tractor at palundag na bumaba sa malaking machinery ng makita si Lovelle. He took a clean hanky from his pocket at pinunasan ang pawisang mukha nito at mga kamay habang papalapit sa dalaga.
“Hi Love!” His voice was refreshing.
She released a soft groan of dismay. Ano ba kasi ang pumasok sa kukute niya at itinigil niya ang kotse at pinanood ang lalaki. Ngayon ay mapipilitan na siyang kausapin ito. Pagkatapos ng naging pag-uusap nila kagabi, hindi na dapat niya ito pinag-uukulan ng anumang klase ng atensiyon.
“Hi.” Pahinamad na sagot niya.
“Pupunta ka sa bayan?” His voice was casual and conversational.
“Hinihintay ako ni Kuya Angelo at Ate Marianna sa bayan. Magpapasukat para sa damit na susuotin ko sa kasal nila.” She obliged to answer his question. Then she looked at him. Ang buhok nito ay basa ng pawis at nakalugay sa mukha. Ang tsinitong mga mata nito ay animo nakangiti palagi. He got his chinky eyes from his half-Chinese mother. At ang ngayon ay basa na ng pawis na damit ay nakabakat sa dibdib nito, revealing a very muscled chest, narrow waist and ripped abs.
Despite sa pawisang mukha nito, he managed to look so handsome and sexy. Walang ibubuga ang mga nakilala niyang lalaking modelo kung ikukumpara dito.
Hah! Lovelle tumigil ka nga! Naloloka ka na naman! Lihim na pinagalitan niya ang sarili.
“I think I need to go now.” She sighed. She needed to stay away from this man at nasisira lamang ang diskarte niya sa buhay.
Nakita niya ang kalungkutang kaagad na rumihestro sa mga mata ng binata.
“Bye Kian.” Muli niyang binuhay ang makina ng sasakyan at mabilis na pinausad palayo ang kotse.
“See you around Love!” He shouted. Ngunit tinangay lamang ng hangin ang sigaw nito. Dahil mabilis na pinaharurot ng dalaga palayo ang sasakyan nito as if hinahabol ng sampung kabayo.